Oh when will I ever stop procrastinating and be more pro-active?!

Just a few things to note this long weekend:

1. I need to see a doc. Just to be on the safe side. Eat healthy for goodness' sake!
2. Exercise self-restraint when shopping. Exercise my body, not my credit card.

3. Treasure baby more. Love does exist!

4. Treasure my galpals more. Kindness, beauty and goodness do exist!

5. Be more filial. I've been avoiding my parents because of some misunderstandings. I'm not proud of it.

6. Acomplish more than what I hope to do. Be decisive and bold. Live my dreams. Learn, survive and thrive.

The Good, Bad & Ugly

The Good:
A great week+weekend with Baby, pals, reading material and makan!

The Bad:
Lack of sleep, Spending unnecessarily

The Ugly:
Purging, Fighting with mum, Procrastinating!

So this is it.

Life can be so good. I am loved by someone in every sense of the word! I couldn't have made it through the past two weeks on my own.

Actually the only things keeping unhappy are
1. My workplace
2. My self-image

So, enough is enough. I shall ask for a change soon as I can while constantly reminding myself that there is still much I can do and learn. And I will eat healthy and exercise and stop being self-destructive.

And maybe I'll be healthier and happier, and I can be the best darling that I can be to those who have loved me so. My life is long and my future is orange-hued.

It's been quite a year. I have much to be thankful for. Patience, faith and courage, little frog! Complain and compare less.

Zen.

*grin*

How I have survived

Things that I am grateful for:

1. My mum. Although she nags, she loves me so much.
2. I have the best baby in the world really. Such love.
3. Having enough money to indulge my wants.
4. Time to sleep.
5. A comfortable home.
6. Youth, energy and ideas.
7. A chance to learn in a sheltered environment.
8. Luck.

Ugh

I'm barely alive.

Coughing madly and feeling rotten. just wanna hide away and rest and get well. Thanks porks love ya.

Why I haven't posted for 3 days

I am officially ill :(

Been feverish, have bloodshot eyes, a nose full of mucus. plehgm clogging up my throat and am dog-tired. Sheesh. I may be young but is this how I want to spend my youth and energy? I like my job, but it sure is taking a toll on me, on many levels. But anyways, on to the good stuff (pardon me if this post isn't too well-crafted. It hurts when i shake my head or jump).

1. I now have an even higher threshold/tolerance for pain and shit.
2. Janie. The lovely lady helped me during lessons and even gave me a lift home after school. I love her. She is truly God-sent.
3. My bunch of monkeys. Lovely lovely angels. I can't ask for a class better than 2E3, hurrah! I'm so glad to see my classroom getting completed. And the kids responding.
4. Elizabeth. Once again my angel and fellow nutcase in a sea of treachery.
5. Mummy. She's saved me time and time again.
6. Having a credit card to buy pretty things :)
7. 1E3. They would be pretty good candidates for form class next year. A barrel of laughs.
8. My bed.
9. Xuanz, for understanding.
10. Increasing rapport with 2E1.

Things to work on:
1. My temper
2. My health
3. Time for myself

The Day after I decided to Celebrate the Affirmative

Well, here I am again. What did I enjoy or was thankful for today?

1. Not having to start teaching til 935 am. I spent the morning tidying up my record book and work station, surfing the filmfest website and hanging up my disco ball :)
2. Having Janie around. I can't imagine being a music teacher without her. Well ok I can, but it's really such a load off my shoulders to have an extra pair of hands around. Especially if those hands belong to a talented, creative, understanding, kind and intelligent person. Honestly this year's workload is really nothing to complain about, overall. As in, in the larger scheme of things lah.
3. Getting to teach music. Bliss!
4. 2N2. Such a bunch of lovely kiddos.
5. 1E5. The most raucous bunch this year. So endearing, so cute, so charming, so loveable. Yes I am thankful even for the brats and bitches, weasels and rascals, monkeys and orangutans because they keep my teaching methods interesting.
6. The Straits Times. It IS getting better.
7. Elizabeth. A lovely lady with her heart in the right place. She deserves better on all counts, and I'm gonna strive to be the kinda pal she has become to me.
8. ELDDS. Yes it's tiring, but hey, I haven't laughed so hard or long in awhile. Nothing like team games and foolish antics to loosen up, lighten up, and give us hope, reason and enthusiasm to face fresh challenges.
9. Being a teacher. Somehow I think no matter how much harm wicked witch does me, she's probably slightly better than evil beings out there in the so-called real world.
10. Being able to extend deadlines. 'Nuff said.
11. HY and her can of sweets.
12. Getting a ride home so my achey feet didn't stretch my pretty but unsturdy shoes outta shape.
13. All in all, a relatively stress-free (happy?) start to the term. Long but fulfilling day, SIFF '05 plans firming up, scrumptious dinner, bread bought with love, reasonable and familiar conversations and an interesting magazine that is giving me some good vibes /ideas.

I hope this keeps up! :)